I'm settling into a happy place....keeping the house reasonably clean, painting and exercising every day.
I start off the morning with a sun salutation that I flow out myself and it seems to really help set the tone for the day. On my days off I take some extra time and add in a warrior sequence. Being able to be outside I feel has made a world of difference. Sometimes when I'm out there doing yoga I watch the clouds float through the sky or the wind caress the trees and I feel so at peace and I realize that nature is such a wonderful thing to be connected to.
I started walking and adding in cardio and though I'm having a bit of pain behind the right knee every once and a while, it hasn't really slowed me down.

I got down to 268 once this year but have struggled to get back there. The elusive 265 still has yet to pass the scale but with effort and consistency I'm determined to get there this year. I feel if I can just break that barrier, it will help propel me to the next level.

Trying to look at the whole process becomes daunting....so instead I'm trying to focus on how I feel.

Today is August 6th 2018 and I'm happy to say I'm still here.
I weighed in this morning at 271, which is less than the last time I was here so I'll count that as a win.
It's been a rough year with time management...feels like there is never enough to get everything done I would like but I'm hopeful for how the rest of the year plays out.

Many good things have happened so far.
We finally got a fence for the backyard and that has been monumental for me....I've been doing yoga outside just about everyday. Feels different when you're under the clouds....like you are blending with the miracles of nature. It's great and it brings me peace and balance.
However I have discovered that by focusing so much of flexibility, I have really neglected cardio and strength. My body needs them all for success and happiness.
I have to combat the pitfalls from my desk job...I can feel how my hips, legs, and back suffer so I'm looking to do yoga and tai chi in the morning before work and then make exercise a priority after I get home.

I'm not where I wish I was but I understand it could be so much worse.
I have to accept where I am and just go from here.

I still haven't achieved my goal of 265. It would mean 100 pounds lost since I believe when I was my highest...it's hard to say totally but that's what I think
The closest I've gotten was 268 right around the time gram died but I haven't really been close since then. That was four months ago. Have bounced around between 277 and 270 since then.

Looking to finish out the year at 250, I feel that's reasonable and doable.
At 265 I'll get my Blueberry Muffin doll
At 250 Huckleberry Pie.

Happy to be back here.
Will look to write each weekday.

My measurements are currently 59 for hips and 45 for waist

Oh my..has it really been that long since I've been here. Today is August 29th and my last weigh in was 281.2 and it looks like I'll come in with a loss of 35+ pounds for one year. WOW....that means I've taken over 140 pounds of pressure off my knees since Sept of 2016.

It hasn't been the easiest of years, I'm struggling to get my health on track, stress is a major factor in my life right now. The kids are gone at least for now and the old man and I are struggling a bit to find our balance with each other. Some days are great...others are rough.
Money is something we need to work on and so because of that I have to stay at my job for a while. I don't really like it though it pays well and has good benefits. It's boring and repetitive, you don't really contribute to the world as a whole, and there's not enough physical movement. I have to remind myself to move around sometimes which I don't like and to be honest, being here makes me feel like a complete failure. I'm an artist, I should be painting, I should be spending my time creating holiday beauty.

Still having some health issues...burping a lot with gas and churning stomach...going to some specialists to rule out ovarian cancer and then to gastro Doctor.....if nothing there will look into counseling....hate my job but necessary for now...having teeth worked on...weigh in at 289.4

Today is the 16th May and it's my son's birthday.
I've been working consistently and at last weigh in was 293.6 which makes a total loss so far of 14.2 pounds.
I'm exercising pretty consistently and that feels great.
Not as much back pain as at the beginning of the month, but the headaches are on and off.
Just need to keep an eye on that...hoping I don't have giant cell arteritis. Will speak with the doctor when I go back in a few weeks if it's still happening.
Maybe it's being caused by my teeth...it's hard to tell actually.

I'm working to get out of debt and hopeful that 3 years from today I can quit this job.
I really don't like it at all....it sucks the human decency out of you and wears you into the ground.

I'm been a little tired the last few days...really feeling fatigue but when I exercise I feel great..

I'm a mess.

Just a quick pop in

It's the first day of May and things are going pretty well. My weigh in on Saturday was 294.8 so I've lost 13 pounds since I've started this journey this year. This is the best I've done in a long time.
Eating is going fairly well and I'm starting to pick up the pace a little in the exercise realm.

I'm having several aches and pains...in my back and frequent headaches but I'm at a job I hate and my son is overseas with the military so I'm not sure what's real and what's emotional. My back pain is real, I pushed the updog yoga pose way before I was ready for that and now I'm feeling it. But I'm looking forward to getting stronger...next goal 292.8 before mothers day.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm happy to say that I'm currently at my lowest weight in two years. Last Saturday I checked in at 295.8 and since getting below 300 was such a milestone for me, I'm glad that was something I was able to accomplish.

My next goal is 287 which was the number I was when I applied for and got the job at the bank in April of 2015. When I get there I will tie my all time low for living in Chattanooga.

One step at time...be consistent...work hard and keep going.

I can get there if I'm working on it.