Ok so today I'm much more calmer than I was last night....sometimes I just get so frustrated when it feels like I have to fight to get two hours to exercise...I'm like really? Why should taking time to get healthier feel like such a struggle? Especially after the house is clean and dishes are done. I was upset and angry but I was determined to get to the pool regardless...and I did. 

I wish that I had enough strength and fortitude to be able to get the same vigorous workout on land that I do in the pool but I'm just not at that point yet. I will be if I just keep going...it may take a year or more but I can get there.

I did 52 laps in the pool last night which equates to 1300 meters. I"m about 460 meters short of a mile but if I stay on pace I will do my first mile right before Christmas....that will be a present for me. 

I got on the scale today and saw a beautiful number BUT considering Thanksgiving is Thursday I'll be quite happy if I just come in at the same as last week 306.6. I am watching my eating and exercising this week hoping to counterbalance any gain I may experience from the holiday. I'm working hard to be proactive and address the issue and devise a plan beforehand, not just deal with the destructive aftermath.