I need to just pause and take a breath. Yesterday's leg pain was very scary, so after I did a bout of yoga, I spent the rest of the evening laying in bed with my legs propped up watching the presidential debate. This morning so far my legs feel much better but we will see what the day brings. I know that in every journey, trials and tribulations are to come. Many difficult obstructions happen along the way, some which you can prepare for, others which you can not.
I think sometimes I fear my life will end long before I am ready for it to and I will have spent too much time wasting away my health due to my own stupid, irrational choices.
What if I die a pathetic loser who didn't take the opportunities given to get her life together? I did push myself too far on Tuesday, maybe doing the WFC and the boxing was just too much. Maybe the answer, at least for now, is to try to get back into the pool as soon as possible. Swimming is low impact and my joints won't be taking such a beating. The yoga is working, doing some weight lifting is working, but I do believe my lower body needs strengthening and I have to throw that into the mix of my exercise. Still working it out and getting it together. I do need some time off of work as well to regain myself mentally. I am taking two days at the end of the month and then will have few full weeks of work left between then and the end of the year. Then I will be taking January 6-January 16th off of work and basically having an exercise sabbatical.
Keep pressing on, keep moving forward.