Last night, I did two bouts of yoga, weights, and some boxing....almost didn't make it through the boxing, my calves and feet were killing me. 
So I made the mistake of searching on youtube for yoga for obese people/losing weight. I usually always stay with a version of Sarah Ivanhoe yoga because I really enjoy her and my body feels great at the end. But yesterday I decided let's try something different, I like to do that every once in a while. 

OMG someone needed to explain to Susie Pops or Bubble gum or whatever the hell her name was what obese means and how it affects one's ability to do yoga. The routine was more for an intermediate yoga practitioner who is in reasonable shape. Also breathing in yoga is done in and out of the nose, we do not shove the exhale out through the mouth. I struggled through just because I'm stubborn as hell but I was extremely disappointed. There's 24 minutes of my life I can't get back.

This morning I put on a dress I hadn't worn in a while, I could feel a little bit of a difference, it felt looser. This will be the last time I wear this particular item this year, Fall returns over the weekend and it should be here to stay so this dress will stay in the closet on a hanger until mid-spring. I wonder how it will feel the next time I wear it, maybe it will be so big I won't be able to wear it again...that would awesome!!

In a few days, it will be a month since I've started this journey. I would be delighted to have a 5 pound loss for the month, for every month actually. I used to set my goals too high I think, trying to lose 2 pounds a week, week in and week out. Every time I didn't make it I would feel like a total loser. Five pounds a month is much more reasonable and realistic than 12. I think my overall goal will be to become half the size of when I started, so 159, I could do that. That's about what I weighed when the old man and I started dating. It would take me 32 months, June of 2019, I will be 45. Still young enough to enjoy myself and celebrate my health. 

Each day we choose to get closer or farther away from our ultimate destination. Choose wisely.